Father in Heaven,
I want to start off by first thanking You for all that You have
done in my life, and thank You especially for 2015. It definitely was a year. I
know I take so much for granted and try my hardest to take full control over my
life instead of trusting You and handing You the pen to my story. I officially
hand You the pen as 2016 comes ringing in.
Forgive me, Father, for all of the sins that have filled my soul.
Forgive me for knowing better but still choosing the wrong decision anyway. I
know I am not perfect, nor will I ever be or even attempt to be, but know I do
understand my actions and my consequences, even if I don't think about
them at the time. I pray that You wash me clean from them. Forgive me for
my past sins and the sins I will commit in the future.
You have blessed me so many times in my lifetime and continue to
bless me on the daily basis. I pray You continue to guide me on this path that
You have paved out for me. You have recently released me onto this path
and though I am still shaky, I know You are walking right there beside me.
You have broken me down and rebuilt me, for that I am forever grateful. I never
understood what You were doing in my life, I will never understand what You do
in my life, but it is truly an amazing work of art that You are painting in my
view. I cannot wait to see where this path takes me in the near and/or
distant future. You are a masterpiece.
I pray that in 2016 You help me to continuing growing into this
person You have taken the mask off to uncover that I can finally
call: "myself". You have helped me find myself and
claim myself as someone I am happy to be and enjoy being. You have
created this new personality, new mindset, new view, new attitude,
new person... I can never thank You enough for being by my side
throughout this uncovering and discovering. I was a complete mess in 2015,
so much had occurred, but You never left my side even if I tried to push You
away. Forgive me for being so hard headed and immature when it came to letting
You in or coming to ou first instead. I never doubted You, nor will I ever doubt
You, that is not the case... there isn't an excuse for my darkness and
selfishness.
I pray You fill me with passion, determination,
motivation, courage, and confidence in 2016. You have helped me
to set my goals and see my dreams, I can already feel You
fitting them into reality. I am so excited to see where these
opportunities You have shown me will lead. I know I will be difficult in this
process... I will get discouraged, I will think it's too much, I will overthink
and even try to give up, but I pray that You keep me on track, no matter
how stubborn I get. Maybe things won't work out, that is fine, it will teach me
and prepare me for other things... that, I have to remember. You have a plan
and I will stick to that.
I pray You continue to grow in me and speak not only to me, but
through me to those in need. I know I have been more to myself these
past few months when only thinking of myself while finding myself, but now that
I am who You need me to be, or to start being, I now ask that I can inspire
others the way that some have inspired me. Use me for You. Wherever, whenever,
however. I will question if it is truly You speaking or not, I will ask for
more signs, I apologize for that, but I want to be sure it is from You and not
what I would want You to say. That is a difficulty I will always have and I ask
that You help me in that, as well.
I am not praying for love this year. Honestly, I pray for no love
this year. You have shown me love and You have taken it away from me, and I
thank You for that. Again, I didn't realize it at the time what You were
doing, but now that I do, I pray that you keep my mind open. Forgive me for not
fully believing in the same kind of "love" that I'm supposed to or
that is out there, but remind me that it is a possibility. I pray that You
take me where I need to go, wherever that may be- settle me into the place You
have set out for me, whatever that may be- and when I am ready will You give me
the opportunity of a partner if that is what You have in store. If he is
out there by chance, I ask that You are preparing him for me, but also
preparing me for him. I pray that You not only guide us as individuals, but
guide us as a pair as well, even if we aren't together yet.
I know I have distanced myself maybe a little too far from people
these past few months, in my mindset, if they aren't contributing to my growth
that You have planted inside of me then I shouldn't continue to strive for a
friendship that is only one sided. I pray in 2016, You show me who my true
friends are... allow me to create new friendships, the ones that will truly
last a lifetime. Open the doors to a new set of people whether it be at school,
outside of class, at a workplace, or even just at random. I know I have never
been good a friendships, but I pray that You bring me the right people to grow
with. Surrounding myself with positive pearls.
I know this is a lot to pray for, and I know there will be a lot
more to pray for, but entering into 2016, I want to start my year off right. I
know so many people say "new year, new me" or "this year will be
my year", but that is not the case for me... I want a new year, finally
me, this is my year. Like I said, Father, I can already see You guiding me
into the direction I have always dreamed, and even if You aren't, You are
preparing me for the plan that You have made for me. I trust You. This is
going to be an amazing journey and I cannot believe it is already here. Forgive
me for my sins as the new year begins and I pray to be filled with freshness as
we walk along this road.
In Your name I pray,
Amen
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