What If?

It's 10 am, I'm dancing around in my messy bun, oversized t-shirt, underwear, and tall socks in my one bedroom studio apartment near the city. Time to get ready for work as I put on my ripped jeans, blazer, Louboutins, and a Michael Kors bag and watch with my smokey eye makeup and nude lips, when I hear a knock on the door to see my Chuck Bass businessman boyfriend standing there in his work suit with a cup of white chocolate moca for me to start my day, leaving giving me his Daniel Grayson wink. I go to work at the high fashion and beauty company, walk into my all white and dark grey office, and begin my work in PR and/or Event Planning for the company itself. Phones ringing, planners packed, computer keys on fire from typing, and running back and forth to events or deals is how I spend my day. It's time to go back home, or to meet my Chuck Bass/Daniel Grayson boyfriend for a romantic dinner or a quiet night on the town, my night is ended with candles lit and a molten chocolate lava cake, of course. My life is a perfect little movie.

I've always been too much of a dreamer to where I can't even grasp my own reality at times and live solely for what I want and expect my life to be like. I blame most of this on my tv shows I am always going to be committed to, Gossip Girl and Revenge (as you can tell by my boyfriend in the clip above. In some cases having this warped reality helps me to get over things in my actual reality, but sometimes it makes it harder to accept that those things I base my "life" on are not even remotely real. Yet. I am a firm believer on "if you want it, go for it" rather than "timing is everything" or "it will come to you if it is for you". You always hear people say "nothing is impossible", and you want to believe that but for some reason something holds you back. Yourself. You put it in your mind that you have to do something a certain way or that things are too big to go for or even just the fact that you should be "realistic"... that's what I always tell myself. It shouldn't be that way. "What if" has always been a term we have used: "What if" this would happen. "What if" I didn't do that. "What if" that were me. "What if". "What if". "What if". But why don't we turn those "what if's" into "I did". Savannah Chrisley (if you don't watch Chrisley Knows Best, you are highly missing out, they are my all time favorite family after the Kardashians, of course. Such a cute and humble southern family with zero filter, literally want their life too) posted this morning, "It's better to look back on life and say "I can't believe I did that", instead of looking back saying, "I wish I did that".". I completely agree with her post. Because it's true. Why would you want to go through life hoping and wishing you had the life you had dreamed about when you are fully capable of having exactly that. Like I had said before, in the book I was reading, "You are a Badass", Jen Sincero talks about how the only thing holding you back from being completely open and ready for life itself is your subconscious mind. It will tell you that something isn't right or isn't possible or worth it, when in reality, it's just because either something in your past told you it wasn't or you have never been exposed to it so you believe it's not real. This is ridiculous to me. Once I read this book, changed my lifestyle, and started living my own life, I truly believe things are possible for me. Sometimes I get discouraged with myself and drop those dreams like a hot rock, but I always pick them back up. That's when you know you want something. Yes, things may be harder to get by, but nothing will just come to you at ease, especially if it's something you want badly enough. That's the beauty in it. Working for things is definitely a process, but the achievement that you make is ultimately the icing on the cake. You worked for it. You earned it. You deserved it. People will always try to change your mind or bring you down, but if that's their purpose in your life, they shouldn't be apart of your life anyways. I'm telling you right now that you are capable of having what you want and will be beautiful working for it. Be passionate.Okay okay okay, so maybe none of that was true, and maybe I went a little too far with the boyfriend or the Louboutins, but hey, it's my fantasy, right? But "what if" that were to happen. It's my dream, so why don't I go for exactly that?One of my biggest pet peeves includes when people get handed everything. Yes, I have been blessed with many things I never earned, but when it comes to things such as this, a career or lifestyle you dream of, I believe working for it is the satisfaction you should want to earn yourself. Have help alone the way, sure, but is it really that rewarding to just be given the world? Okay, I won't lie, if I had that opportunity, of course I would take it, but build upon that. Make it greater. Never have the "what if", keep succeeding.So, my challenge for you, my readers, is to think this week about what your "what if's" have been, why they are "what if's" and figure out how to make that change into "I did" or "I will". Make a goal... write out every detail of what you want in that goal... make an objective within the next few weeks, few months, or few years... make a plan... set that plan... and start working towards it. Be specific.