I know
I have already written a roommate appreciation post in my original blog, I think
it was posted back in September or October… and though nothing has changed, a
lot has changed.
So even
though Aubry didn’t tell me to write this one, this one is for you
snickerdoodle :)
As you
all have probably read, Aubry and I have kind of been newly found best friends,
but it’s not like we had to grow into our friendship. For those who haven’t
known our cute little love story I guess you could say, a brief overview: both
of our roommates last year were graduating so we were going to be placed with “randoms”…
our “randoms” were not compatible for either one of us. I posted on YikYak (a
college campus wide anon app based on the closest college near you, obviously MSU
is the only college anywhere near here) that I needed a roommate. Yes, many
people responded but none worked out or continued the conversation, then one
seemed to be okay… looked each other up on Facebook, obviously you have to
stalk, right? We had one mutual friend on FB, which to me was a sign, lol why-
idk- but it did. We started messaging back and forth and instantly became
close. We both had boyfriends at the time that both said we were more obsessed with
each other than we were of them… true. We had never met until the day she moved
in. You would think it would be awkward to live with someone you didn’t even
know… or to meet someone you have been sharing everything with for the past four months for the first time, but it wasn’t. Aw, and we have been bff ever since,
how cute, I know.
Growing
up I haven’t had the best luck with “friends” (if you would even call them
that). I remember the first time being treated badly by a “friend” was in first
grade… that is sad, especially since I remember it so vividly… at 6 years old…
but ever since then I’ve literally had one friend that has stayed with me
through everything. Which is fine; you don’t have to surround yourself with
friends, but you don’t need to surround yourself with people as “friends” just
because it is expected or because you need things to do. Then Aubry came along.
I can honestly say I have never met someone who is the exact same person as I am,
I’m pretty sure we were twins separated at birth. You know how most twins are
complete opposites but also identical in personality? That is Aubry and me, but
it just works! I have made so many new friends, actual friends, best friends
even, since I started my life here in Morehead and I cannot be more thankful
for those people, but Aubry is… different. I truly believe that soulmates don’t
always come in the form of a significant other, so with that I believe Aubry is
mine.
Being
roommates with your best friend can sometimes be complicated. You may want your
time to yourself, but it may be taken as something is wrong between you two.
You may get annoyed with things the other one does, but that doesn’t mean
things are tense. You can come back to the room after a long day and both not speak the rest of the night, but you know it’s just a normal thing. Or sometimes you
can share the best memories solely in the room (we may have too many memories from just being in here,
but none that I wouldn’t do again). To us, it isn’t a forced friendship just because
our beds are connected, it is an endless slumber party. I not only have learned
so much about her, but I’ve learned so much about myself just from being with
her or from the advice she gives. We aren’t afraid to be blunt with each other
instead of sugar coating things with a chance of something bad happening to the
other; that’s what best friends are for, right? I care for her more than I care
for myself and that is something not many people can say about someone else. Even
if my world is absolutely crashing, if she has the slightest thing wrong, I
will instantly forget about what was even bothering me to run to her. I know I
can share anything and everything with whether it be clothes, food, stories,
concerns, battles… heck, even guys. Even if I try to keep things in from her to
save face or to keep my strong image, she sees right through me but will give
me time to come to her when I need her. And the same for me with her.
Many
people don’t understand our relationship, or can’t understand it, but I think
that is what is so special between us. I’ve been told I’ve changed this year,
which I have because I meant to, but it’s also because I have found someone who
has brought out a side of me that I could never let out with anyone else. She
has been told she has changed, which she probably has, but we have grown and
grown together. No matter what you do or how you do it, people are going to
have something negative to say, so I am thankful to have someone who will
always support me and never leave me on the ground when I am down. And I hope
she feels the same.
This
has been absolutely a crazy school year for me, a good crazy. I’m so glad I got
to spend every moment of it with Aubry. But the problem is that school is out
in two days, then there isa three month period where we are apart until school starts back. The bigger
problem is that we won’t be roommates anymore with next year being my senior
year. Not because we didn’t want to be, we tried everything to be, but things
weren’t working how we were planning. I will still be living on campus with one
of my good friends and she will be living off campus with one of her good
friends. As upset as I am about not being able to spend 24’7 with her next
year, nothing in our friendship will change. That is a promise. I know we will
still continue to have our slumber parties, but in the typical way, but we will
also spend as much time together as we can. Though I am scared to not live with
her, I know our friendship will never fail, heck it may even grow stronger if
that is even possible.
I
cannot thank you enough, Aubry, for being the other half of me. And though you
are across from me laying in bed and I could tell you all this in person, I feel
the world needs to know it as well. I know I may not always be the best friend I
should be and I can’t apologize enough for that, but I want you to know how
special you are to me. I can never lose you, I won't. I also know that we can be such a hassle to each other and to everyone
else, but there is no one else I would rather be rowdy with or spend my nights
eating pizza while bundling up watching Netflix movies almost every night! You
are such a strong, beautiful, motivated and genuine person, I don’t want you to
ever forget that or doubt that. I know there are things that you struggle with
that I can’t help but I will always try the best I can to do as much as I can
to fix it. I love you so so much. *HOHHHHHHH YAAAAAA!!*
p.s. good luck on your 8 a.m. final in the morning..........
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